7/9/09

Sorry, hun, but you just aren't human. 

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Ev'rything is going wrong, but we're so ha-ppy. 

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Work is enjoyable. Stressful, but it's insane at how quickly I've learned to manage it. Should be interesting if I notice a difference while at school.

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Mmm. I'm so fucking lazy.

Okay. Get up.

There you go. Twenty steps were no challenge. 

All right, let's take a look:

Intro to Biology/Lab

Speech

Intro to English Studies

Applied Calculus

Psychological Aspects of Drug Use and Abuse

Not bad, I'd say.

What about you guys? Do you know yet?

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Bored out of my mind. Text me something incredibly random when you read this, so I get extremely confused. 

Should I play Pokemon? Or should I read some more of the short stories within I Am Legend?

Hmm.

Or maybe I should throw my clothes in the wash. Ooooo.

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"With the changing times comes a change in principles."

"But this goes against everything your family has ever stood for . . ."

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Help me, Suzanne, Help Help me Suzzane. 

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7/10/09

It's amazing how insanely quick one's mood can be turned to shit, just by looking at some digits on a slip of paper. It's also amazing at how badly fucked someone's life can become just by stupid fucking numbers. 

Hours later and I'm still somewhat pissed, and apparently unable to type/spell. Most of the emotion is gone, though. The most painful thing now is that my dad just tried to make me feel better, and I totally shot him down. And the thought of him being sad makes me sad, and God, I cannot be dealing with this right now. I know things are going to end up okay and all, but why the fuck can't things go the way I want them to? Just once? That's all I'm asking, you asshole. Just once. I fucking hate you, and I hate this entire fucking system you've developed. And it's all beyond me, because one person cannot change the world and the world will never be changed. I've already accepted that fact.

Why do we have to pay for a fucking education? Why? There is absolutely no reasoning behind this. I'm going to be spending six thousand dollars (and that's a relatively low amount for college, mind you) a semester just so some assholes can do a half-assed job of teaching me. What? Fucking Biology? I don't mind being forced to take generals, and fuck it, most of them actually sound interesting, but why does it cost me a 60+ hours of hard earned money just to take it? Why? This system is so fucking flawed. 

Fuck it.

I'm going to, GET THIS, play Pokemon or read. And probably cut my wrists to Counting Crows (not really). I'm loling at the idea of it, though.